“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” – Ephesians 3:20-21
Recently my family went through a lot. About three months ago my grandmother lost her voice and she then had a CAT SCAN and it showed a mass in her throat. From there it went down hill she was in Cabell Huntington and then the University Kentucky Hospital because they thought that they could remove the mass from her throat but they couldn’t so she ended up coming back here to a Hospice House and she was there for 2 days and she ended passing away.
When all of this started I thought ‘oh no it couldn’t get any worse” because I still had hope that she could make it through it and have a story to tell but she didn’t but I have my story of how I have grown in Christ and have realized there is ALWAYS MORE through Jesus Christ. There is ALWAYS MORE to look forward to,MORE to be thankful for, MORE to give, MORE to learn, MORE blessings to receive, MORE growth in faith, MORE peace to experience, MORE wisdom to gain, and MORE reason to love. Through God’s Love he helped me realize all this in a little time and I am truly grateful that he did.
When the doctors were sending my grandma to University of Kentucky my mom asked me if I could stay at their house and take care of their Dog Cody and I said ‘yes mom of course it helps me out with my homework and my online class since they have WiFi.” So to me it was a win-win I was helping them out all while being able to do my assignments without having to drive to the library to do them. So I moved into my grandparents house and it was my first time really living on my own and it really gave me of sense of what being an adult is like. During this time I read my Bible, prayed, worshiped 4 to 6 times a day because I knew if I didn’t I would have a breakdown. There was one evening that I was laying in my bed praying and crying during my prayer I got to the point where I couldn’t breathe because I was so worried and scared; my grandma that I lost was my best friend.
I talked to a lady at my church about how I was feeling and what I was going through because there were times that I felt like I HAD to be strong for my grandpa, mom, aunt, and dad, and brother. She said this to me ‘you don’t need to be strong for anyone don’t feel like you need to be. Your feelings are just as valid as your mom’s and grandpa’s.’ When Staci said this to me it really opened my eyes because it is true. I had no reason to feel like that I had to be strong for them. I just did and by feeling like that it put that much more stress on me. When this was going on I was living at their house, going to school, and working. So I was pretty stressed so once I accepted that I didn’t need to be strong for my family I felt a load come off my shoulders. Through all of this I was getting God winks left and right. My friends at school were always encouraging me and telling me that I could talk about anything with them. So that was God showing me THERE IS ALWAYS MORE KINDNESS.
I knew during this time that I couldn’t lose my faith and how I trust in God. I went to Church one Sunday and when I walked in my pastor was surprised to see me and he asked me why I was there and I said ‘This is the place I need to be right now.’ I needed to be there because I feel so much love and support at my church and being there really helped me even though I had tears running down my face pretty much the whole time.
When it was it was getting closer to the end of my grandmother’s life I came to understand that as MUCH as I want her to live and be here with us that God wants her to be with him in HEAVEN; that there is not a better place for her to be in. I have an angel watching over me always. As much as I will miss her and her hugs I am so thankful that she is with JESUS!
I came across Ephesians 3:20-21 during one of my many “quiet times” when all of this was going on. It was like God hit me in the head with a 2 by 4. This is what it says:“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” As I read through this I realized that through Jesus Christ that we can do and have MORE! MORE JOY, MORE PEACE, MORE STRENGTH, MORE COMPASSION, MORE TO BE THANKFUL FOR, MORE TO GIVE, MORE TO LEARN, MORE BLESSINGS, MORE GROWTH IN FAITH, MORE WISDOM TO GAIN, AND MORE REASON TO LOVE THERE IS ALWAYS MORE THROUGH THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST.
If we know Jesus and live a life for Jesus he will give you everything you need. He will make ME realize that even though my Grandmother passed away that there was ALWAYS MORE JOY, MORE PEACE, MORE STRENGTH, AND MORE FAITH AND ALWAYS MORE TO LOOK FORWARD TO. The morning that my grandmother passed away I was asleep and I got a phone call from my dad and he told me that she passed away. When I got off the phone with him I layed there frozen unsure what to do. I didn’t cry I was just frozen. It was like God let me accept that she was going to pass away before she did and that helped a lot. It also helped that I was able to read something I wrote for her at her funeral.
Since then I have been on a youth trip and continuing to meditate in God’s Word, prayer and in worshiping in songs him and I feel closer to him than I ever have been before. He is helping me realize who he wants me to be through him. God has given MORE JOY, MORE PEACE, MORE STRENGTH, MORE COMPASSION, MORE TO BE THANKFUL FOR, MORE TO GIVE, MORE TO LEARN, MORE BLESSINGS, MORE GROWTH IN FAITH, MORE WISDOM TO GAIN, AND MORE REASON TO LOVE THERE IS ALWAYS MORE THROUGH THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST.
As I bring this to a close remember that in every situation THERE IS ALWAYS MORE!!!MORE JOY, MORE PEACE, MORE STRENGTH, MORE COMPASSION, MORE TO BE THANKFUL FOR, MORE TO GIVE, MORE TO LEARN, MORE BLESSINGS, MORE GROWTH IN FAITH, MORE WISDOM TO GAIN, AND MORE REASON TO LOVE THERE IS ALWAYS MORE THROUGH THE LOVE OF JESUS CHRIST.
❤ Elena Grace